You’re worth the expensive pancakes

I had a friend over the other night and offered to make her some pancakes. When I pulled the bag out of the pantry she picked it up and said “Kenzie, these are expensive pancakes… are you sure?” I turned around and before I could think twice I said “do you not think you are worth expensive pancakes?”

I went into total speech mode and blasted my friend who was not asking for my speech, but I went for it anyway. But I too struggle with the same thing. There have been times where I’ve settled for crumbs when all along there was a seat for me at the table with a feast.

I expressed to her how it was my joy to use my expensive pancakes on her! And how worthy she was of expensive pancakes, and so much more. Then it felt like God was speaking right back to me “but do you believe you’re worth the expensive pancakes?”

Ouch.

Isn’t it funny how we’re so willing to serve others? Push other people to step out and dream big, yet all the while holding ourselves back? It’s time to know your worth. It’s time to know what you have been given.

It is God’s DELIGHT to see you stepping out, taking risks, and dreaming with him! He has given you gifts, talents, and skills to use for the kingdom. He wants to teach you how to receive because you’re not going to be able to accomplish those big dreams without a team. Without people pouring out, helping you along the way, as you do the same for others.

I wrestle with this because I feel like I have to work to earn. And although there’s wisdom in working hard, there are times I genuinely believe I settle for less because I am relying more on my own efforts than tapping into the resources of the kingdom.

I’ve come to the realization lately that although I am a big dreamer, I still am not dreaming big enough. And as God begins to work in my heart and teach me how to receive, I am beginning to see the bigger picture and how much more He has in store for me. If only I would let go of my small-mindedness and simply rest in my worthiness as His daughter, who is so worthy of being entrusted with big dreams… and expensive pancakes.