Purpose through the pain: What my break-up taught me
"Sometime later, God tested Abraham’s faith. “Abraham!” God called. “Yes,” he replied. “Here I am.” “Take your son, your only son—yes, Isaac, whom you love so much—and go to the land of Moriah. Go and sacrifice him as a burnt offering on one of the mountains, which I will show you.” The next morning Abraham got up early. He saddled his donkey and took two of his servants with him, along with his son, Isaac. Then he chopped wood for a fire for a burnt offering and set out for the place God had told him about.” -Genesis 22:1-3 (NLT)
It started with a simple declaration. “God there’s nothing I hold onto.”
Have you ever prayed a prayer that terrified you? This was one of those prayers.
I had been in a relationship for over four years. I was certain my life would look just the way I had planned, that was until God asked me to surrender one of the most treasured things in my life, my relationship.
I told him I’d give him anything, but this relationship? Anything but this God.
Conflicted and filled with fear, I wanted to question.
But in the verse above, we see that Abraham obeyed God immediately and unquestionably. It wasn’t a question. Obedience wasn’t an option. He obeyed without hesitation.
One week later, I’m sitting on a bench in a park where once conversations of laughter and joy had filled that very spot. Looking into the eyes of the man I just spent four years of my life with, I start to share what God had spoken to me. Few details. No explanations. All I knew was I had to obey.
The same bench that we shared times of joy and laughter turned into an altar that night as we knelt down and surrendered the one thing we had been holding onto the tightest.
With tears pouring, we stood up and left what we had loved the most on that altar. In one moment, everything changed.
We exchanged our wants for God’s perfect plan. A plan we didn’t understand.
In the middle of the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, peace came rushing in like a flood and the presence of God was more present than I had ever experienced.
Tears in my eyes. Smile on my face. Overwhelmed and completely in awe of the beauty that God brought even in my brokenness, I walked away.
It wasn’t easy from here. Obedience wasn’t a one-time choice, but a daily decision to choose His plan over mine.
Instead of asking for answers, I started to seek His presence.
And you know what I found out through this season?
Jesus really is enough.
He really is a good, good Father.
He doesn’t call us to a life of surrender to take things away. He calls us to surrender so He can give us so much more.
I pray these words will jump right off the screen and not be just another devotional, not just another catchy quote to re-post on your social media, I pray these words will reach the depths of your soul.
Today I want to ask you a simple question.
What is God calling you to surrender? What’s that thing you’re holding onto?
It may not be a relationship. It may simply be surrendering over your plans and dreams to the Lord. Maybe God’s calling you to a place far from home and you need to surrender your comfort. Maybe it’s a job you always dreamed of but it’s not the job God has called you to, or maybe it is a relationship.
Whatever it is, I want to encourage you today with this.
Obedience is always worth it.